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Back on LiveJournal...mainly to write out whatever I need to get off my chest. A lot has happened since my last entry; that's for sure. Since the last entry I've committed to a major after 7 switches, gotten a DUI, had major abdominal surgery, gotten back on-track in school, I've done some drugs I swore I'd never do, learned a billion life lessons, moved 3 different times (still in Tallahassee though), my Mom finally found a guy who treats her great, I've ran a high talley on the ladies while staying single (just bangin and cruisin), popped out a bunch of new songs, financially in debt, had my first real bar gig, and got a new truck (2005 4dr Nissan Titan).
A lot more has happened to say the least, the more it comes back to me, the more I will insert in future posts.
Yesterday, I went to court and found out I don't have to pay for the damages to the chick's car I hit during my DUI night...at least not by court law.
As for now, I mainly just need a job. Credit Cards are the coolest thing for about a month, then the fun stops. On that note, I'm gonna go for a run; first time in a while...
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[13 Sep 2005|10:39pm] |
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everythings going great in life don't worry
except after the phone call with my mom..she's back to talking to the guy i hate...i can't believe she hasnt learned and no one likes this guy...i'm mad and hurt...i will not go home nor speak to my mom if she can't learn from the past and realize this guy is not for her. i would approve if he were...but he isn't and i really resent the guy.
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| WARPED TOUR!!!!!!! |
[10 Aug 2005|02:09am] |
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Warped tour was the fuckin shit man....that fucking mustard bitches!.....Me, Miles, George, Joey, Derek and Megan Shrantz......it was a fuckin blast. it rained...but it was like a light sprinkle the whole time...fucking awesome.....most pits were badasssssssss and story of the year, skindred, te offspring, my chemical romance, blood thirsty, senses fail were awesome.......man we had a great time. we dined and ditch at a restaurant...which was fuckin awesome.
tonight...we went to aj's which was awesome....all the boys having a great time hitting on the ladies. Man this crew we have going right now is so clutch. its like all the girls come right to us...its funny as shit. I love life right now. I'm having a fuckin blast. Pat, Pete, Little Jimmy, Deweesy, Drew and Me....badass time. Ok....lady is at the door....time to get that burger....:-)
Rob Kellner.......OUT!
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| Bats = gay |
[22 Jul 2005|06:57pm] |
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Bats and weapons in fights are for fags. Some dude hit another guy in the face with a bat breaking his jaw and chipping some teeth. If you can't hold your own in a fight and need a bat..then don't fight, thats the bottom line.
Liz's party was awesome...lots of tension...i dont think anyone was drunk, the keg got cashed and then everyone jsut started shit with everyone and there were fights all over the place. Shit was entertaining. Corbin beat some kids ass for spitting in a girls face. Overall I had a good time. Hung out with a pretty cool chick. But the huge brawl when citrus came was ridiculous
Last night, Derek Bethusen's b-day...drank and smoked a bit and then went nigger knockin....Jeff Christie on the 3rd house knocks on the window and breaks it...lol...we hauled ass but that was the funniest thing. That made my night right there.
BTW!!! Go see Wedding Crashers....it's the funniest movie u've seen since Old School!
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| Mons Venus |
[17 Jul 2005|05:56pm] |
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Last night was soo much fun and the night before was a shitload of fun too. Friday night, I had a huge party here at my house which was badass. After the keg floated about 25 people stayed and then I busted out the shitloads of natty light I had in the fridge. It was a lot of fun and everyone was having such a good time. The party lasted til about 5am.
Last night(saturday) was a great time. me, miles, clay, joey, cole, jeff, beau and downey all went to Tampa for the night. It was Downey's last night to party with all of his best friends before he ships off to the navy on wednesday. We hit up a hookah bar and stayed there for about 3 hours...that shit is sooo good. The music was good, the smoke was good, and we jsut chilled and had a great time. After that...we got on Dale Mabry and went to Mons Venus. $20 to get in was worth it. So many strippers and everyone of em was hot as shit. Boobs in the face and dollars flying everywhere. We had a good time. Downey and me got lap dances...u live once and when's the next time ur gonna have a pornstar body all over you.
It was a great weekend. Prolly gonna go see Wedding Crashers tonight with Joslin and Dawsy and some others. Take it easy e'ryone!
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| Rain...all day! |
[11 Jul 2005|02:19pm] |
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It's been a kinda shitty past 4 days with the hurricance and me having strep throat and fever n all. But at least I know i'm not missin out on anything. The strep is almost gone thanks to all the meds i got form the doc at the ER. Other than that everything has been really enjoyable since i got back home.Its great to hang out with all my old friends and kinda feelin like old times again. M-dawg has been here almost every night cause I guess he got kicked outta his house and Dawsy and the other guys have been comin over alot too. I think i'm gonna throw a party in the next few days once this weather clears.
Me, Billy, and Miles have been rockin on guitars like every day. We're gonna put together a set and play at Casey's sometime soon on open mike. I figure the ladies wont be able to hold back from giving some generous tips...lol
The other night Kiera called me and almost sounded like she cared how I was doing. I han't talked to her forever.
Parties around this area are few and far between but there's usually no trouble in gettin a few of the guys together and drinking a couple cases of beer, seems to be how the average nights go. I'm gonna go buy another handle of that George Dickel Whiskey...goes down soo smooth.
I miss having some lovin...its always comforting to have a girl around.
this rain is killer..
man, Hydrocodone from the Doc rocks!
I like living here with Amy and Billy they are very laid back and we always have a fun time. I miss my Mom and brother Steven a lot, they're having a blast in Sweden.
Today...we're roundin up the troops and goin to Hooters
ok enough of this raaanting business..i'm gonna go get naked and wet and shower the shit outta myself and then...the day begins...it was a late night last night..lol piece out people!
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[26 Jun 2005|04:33pm] |
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my recent ex girlfriend slept with my roomate and close friend michael the other night...they are both pieces of trash.
get this..he's an ex hardcore druggy, an ex prisoner, and looks like a racoon...talk about a serious downgrade.
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| long time... |
[15 Jun 2005|10:40am] |
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the past few weeks have been rough on me. losing a relationship with the person you've been with everyday for over half a year kinda beats on the heart(no pun intended). It's a slow process but I'm getting up and moving on and learning from any kind of mistakes I've made so that I can be the best that I can be for the next girl to come around. i'm not in a rush to find anyone right now, i'm kinda focused on getting myself in gear and working towards what I want in the future. I may not have an exact career in mind, but my motivation and ultimate goal in life is to have an amazing healthy family and be the best provider possible for them. No matter what I'm going to do, I will be successful in it.
I've been playing a lot of guitar lately, learning new chords to get myself ready for the tons of lyrics that are about to spill out of my head. I've already started on one song, but I feel at least 5 to come out in the next week. It's tough to write when your heart hurts so bad that breathing becomes kinda difficult, but i realize that everything happens for a reason. Tough stuff happens to make u stronger in life. you gotta look at it as if it's a good thing, because God is allowing you to become stronger and wiser, and trusting that you know he's got something 10times better down the road for you. That's how I look at it. People change and so does everything else in time. "I change by not changing at all" - eddie vedder
alright, shower time bitches.
I'll post some more stuff on the brighter side of life in the coming weeks
take it easy folks!
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[03 Jun 2005|01:22am] |
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this pain really does suck. the pain of not having your significant other around anymore. the loss of what once was. it's tragic, but then again that's what makes life what it is and what makes everyone stronger and more knowledgeable in their own right. SHit happens. I hate the fact that girls have to make excuses for breakups, distance...space...i'm still young, that shit is jsut bs...how about a straight forward, sorry, i'm just gonna cut this off and see who else can sweep me off my feet. i'll tell u one thing, you'll never find anything as good as me ever again. If you want a dick head man or someone who likes to play games, go for it, you'll be miserable......people with hearts are willing to stick through any kind of obstacle in a relationship, be it distance, job related, or cultural differences. Anyone who is done with high school and feels that they are still young and not ready for anything are still immature seeking for maturity. I'll come out and say that i act immature and put up that as a front only to hide my troubles that I've faced in life. I haven't had a typical life, i've had a lot of trials and tribulations. My maturity level is higher than the majority of people my age. I once loved a girl who I thought was everything I thought she'd be, but I found out she was everything I feared she'd be. It's like dejavous or however u spell it. I'll jsut keep going to church to pray for something real to hold onto for once. Losing people in life is the toughest part of life. I thank God that I still have the closest people to me in life still with me. God is great for that. Have a good night everyone.
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I've lost my girlfriend
I feel sad and alone
because she's going to london for 4 months this fall
she's scared, i'm scared
i don't want anyone else
this sucks
why can i never have what i want?
I Love her
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| Okay, here's the deal |
[30 Apr 2005|05:54pm] |
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I feel like a bad guy...i act so immature and asinine sometimes. I'm foolish and sometimes I try to stay in the good light of everyone around me by possibly hurting others. I've got to clear my head and weigh out what really is important and do the right thing. I feel lost...i'm a wanderer
I'll post more later..i gotta get headin to the play...til then..
I'm back...4 hours later...I don't know where to start. I was so emotionally numb at the play and now i sit here and just think and hurt. I called Brian to ask for some brotherly advice which was comforting. But I still feel terrible. I upset my girlfriend last night and she ended up leaving instead of staying with me which always kills me inside. I know she's upset but to not even want to be around me or talk whatever it is through makes me feel like she could care less. She does care but that's jsut how i feel and that is her way of blowing off her steam i guess. Today she was still upset and disappointed in me(?) She told me that it would be better if i didn't go to her sister's graduation reception tonight with her family. I've been looking forward to this for a long time and she has been telling me that she wants me to meet her grandparents and her other family members that are there. I feel like i've been kicked to the curb when I can't even hang with the family. For some reason this has really knocked my heart, I feel like crying, I don't cry often, but that's what I feel like doing. No matter how mad or disappointed with whoever i'm with, I would never tell them they can't be with me and my family, because when I get close to a girl, they are like my family. Just like I would do with my best friends, they are my family and a close girlfriend is the same. I shouldn't be all sappy and stupid like this but occasionally I get like this. I feel very lonely right now. I think my greatest fear is to be alone and to never be good enough. Those two fears have always plagued me. I love to listen to Frank Sinatra and the Pack and some Mel Torme, reminds me of something comforting. I need that person I turn to to tlak about everything. I want to hear his comforting voice and his wise words of wisdom. I hope no one ever loses a parent while they are young. Parents teach you 90% of what you need to know in this world. I still have a lot to learn. I wish I would have more talks about women, cars, social life, music, business world, and jsut life in general. I'm lonely right now, heartching...i wish i could hold Kiera right now...that's what would make me feel better, and to have her just looking back at me as if there were nothing else she'd rather do than to be there with me for that moment in time. I Love her. I'm gonna go and lay down for a bit or play the guitar.
Goodnight friends...
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| Lately I've been up in thoughts |
[26 Apr 2005|12:23pm] |
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Exam week is soo hectic. I've been listening to music constantly and I'm really ready start back with writting music. Once I get enough money saved I'm gonna buy some cool recording stuf and record some good songs for you folks and then get started by sending my stuff to management representation. I'll be where I want to be soon enough. I'm not letting anything discourage me anymore. This nigga is going to the top! I got drunk last night studying for my math exam...It felt good.
This summer I'm gonna make a shitload of dough...and I'm going to NY for a week. I'm planning on seeinga few Braves games in Atlanta this summer too. I want to do a lot with however many days I'll be off from work.
Late breaking news...Pat finally talked to Leah!..on the phone too...big step for that nigga!
I can't wait for summer...I've got a lot that I want to do and get started on.
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am i the kid that struggles for candy that he can't reach?
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[23 Apr 2005|12:45pm] |
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I love my girlfriend. I just want her to feel comfortable enough with me to be able to talk to me about anything.
I have a downfall in relationships. I'm not a dickhead bf. I don't understand this world...lol
I started my job as a server and it wasn't as bad as I thought, very hectic, but not bad.
My car got towed last night, ...
I wanna be everything she wants
This summer should be awesome...I'm gonna play guitar a lot since I've taken soo much time off from it.
Last night's partying was fun, I was drunk, but it was fun
Can't wait to work at Hollister
My Mom is gonna be here soon to come see my play tonight. I cherish every moment with her, even if I don't show it. I Love my Mom with all my heart.
Bout to take a shower...later
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| Formal |
[18 Apr 2005|12:35am] |
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Kiera's Formal was a lot fo fun...it was tons of fun the first night until the alcohol didnt sit well in my stomach and I kinda ruined the night from that point on, but K was nice enough to still come over to comfort me. I dont know what was up with me after I puked... dont like liquor, end of story.
The second night was a lot of fun...We danced for a long time...the girl has some moves. Felt bad for Pat, his date was smoking and he didn't like her and wasnt talking to her. But hopefully something good will come his way; like a girl that he actually is into.
I celebrated the girl's b-day this afternoon by making her Baked Ziti and Blonde Brownies and setting up a little picnic by the lake we go to. She was surprised and seemed to love it. I sang the song I wrote for her and gave her a card and present. She's keeping the present to open tomorrow on her actual b-day. I'm dating a 20yr old...damnn ..lol, that's the first time i've ever said that.
I am up for the part of Radames in Aida here in Tallahassee. It's out of me an 2 others. I hope I get it because I love the songs that Radames sings. The music is awesome and the people auditioning seem like they'd be great people to work with.
I'm excited to start my 2 new jobs! I start serving at the University Club Restaurant on wednesday and Hollister will get underway May 4th i think. And thats about it.
School work is done, all I have left is some studying and one little extra credit paper due and I'll be done for the semester. It will be a relief!
Goodnight kids...dream the good dreams tonight!
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| Damn Skippy |
[10 Apr 2005|02:15pm] |
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| Photoshoot |
[07 Apr 2005|04:02pm] |
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Today's recap...woke up, took Kiera to her car, and went to chorus class. Then came over to Kiera's place after because a photographer was driving from Jacksonville to take pictures of her for a photoshoot. She wanted me there jsut to be safe. The man seemed nice; family and kids. Kiera looked amazing while taking the pics. It became kinda long ...or felt long for me because I was jsut sitting around while she got pictures taken, but I didn't mind, I think I may have made Kiera think that I was tired of waiting for her and I felt bad for giving her that impression, I just had nothing to occupy my time. But I could see how happy and excited she was to be doing some modeling and it was great to see that look in her eye. She looked soo beautiful today, hell she looks beautiful everyday. Today she sorta shined though, like a movie star or something. Not to mention she looked sexier than ever.
I got really drunk last night with Nick and Pat which was cool. My friend Michael is going to be living with us for the summer and taking Sarah's room. And I'm pretty excited about that, he's a really cool guy and he's amazing on the guitar so hopefully he can help me make my songs solid. I'm about to go lift some weights so I'm gonna end this bitch! Piece!
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| I'm lost |
[06 Apr 2005|02:42pm] |
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I dont know what is going on. I feel like I've been lost in thought for the past couple years. Now, I want to make the best of my life and I want to begin the process of working towards the things I've waited for as a kid. I want to be the best provider I can be with my future family. I've always held on to staying young and not wanting to grow up. But here I sit, and after reading "Tuesday's with Morrie," I feel like if I focus on not growing up, I will lead an unhappy life. Therefore, I will face life and grow up. I'm ready to become the adult I need to be in order to succeed in this life and take the necessary measure to insure that fact. Seeing how my peers around me are shaping and molding themselves into the future working people of America makes me want to work harder. Seeing how hard working and determined Kiera is makes me feel like I'm letting myself down and her as well. I want to work jsut as hard as her, she seems to be happy and responsible, I want that too. I feel like I'm failing myself by not taking charge of my future. I feel like I'm failing the people closest to me as well and I apologize for that. I'm looking ahead, I will try to live day by day and make the best of each of them. It feels good to get that out.
-Rob
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[31 Mar 2005|12:56pm] |
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Job interview today to work as a waiter at the University Club Restaurant at the Stadium. Wish me luck! If I get the job I will get an average of $15 an hour which would be awesome cause i wanna save for cool things to do with Kiera like cruises, shows/concerts, road trips, and random surprises...o ea..and visiting her in London next fall. She got accepted to study aborad in London with FSU's London Theatre Experience. It's an opportunity of a lifetime and I'm very happy for her. The distance will be kinda rough cause I love seeing her everyday, but it will be jsut a little bump and before you know it she'll be back. We'll talk on the phone and email a lot. She's definitely worth waiting for...I've waited most of my life to meet a girl like her, so 4 months shouldn't be to bad. So it's safe to say that my life is going really good. School is great for a change. ONly one class I'm doing not up to par, but I plan on focusing hard on it this weekend and at least pulling a B in the class.
I love beer.
I love Nerds. (thecandy)
I love my family.
I love Kiera.
I love music.
I love my reef sandals.
I love waking up in the morning.
P.S. To everyone...go out and pick up the book "Tuesdays with Morrie" that book is incredible, it's an easy read and it will change your perspective on things in life.
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| I Love Kiera! |
[29 Mar 2005|11:14am] |
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EVERYONE!!!! Download the song "Helena" by My Chemical Romance...you'll dig it!
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